In the Stillness of Chaos

In the Stillness of Chaos is a poetic archive of survival, memory, and becoming-written from the margins of neurotypical, cisnormative, ableist expectation. With vivid tenderness and precise defiance, Jaime Hoerricks-a trans, autistic, gestalt-processing writer and educator-offers a collection shaped not by resolution, but by recursion: a rhythm of spirals, stimming, silence, and sacred return. Across its pages, you'll find poems that map the terrain of identity not as a fixed point, but as a living, shifting landscape. Meltdowns become thresholds. Shutdowns become sacred retreats. Trans embodiment becomes not a deviation, but an ancient, embodied grammar. Through metaphor, memory, and myth, these poems speak in the language of pebbles left for others to find-kinship offered in fragments, wholeness found in the act of witnessing. Drawing on themes of sensory overwhelm, ancestral reclamation, systemic erasure, and autistic pattern recognition, this collection resists the linear, the clinical, and the commodified. Instead, it carves space for what cannot be measured: the quiet defiance of surviving beautifully, the poetics of feeling too much, and the courage of naming oneself on one's own terms. Whether you are neurodivergent, queer, trans, or simply seeking language for the unspeakable, In the Stillness of Chaos is not an instruction manual or a recovery narrative-it is a cairn. A resting place. A companion for those who've had to write themselves into being because the world refused to do it for them. This is not poetry that asks to be decoded. It asks to be felt. To be honoured. To be remembered.