Bastard Queen

The Bastard Queen: A Family Secret Revealed is a story of secrets, acceptance, and forgiveness.  This is my life. A life I felt never needed to be written about because through my eyes was rather uneventful. I'd been awarded and achieved goals that not many people get to experience but chalked it up to luck and the hard work given to my vocal studies. Those moments have been documented in writing and photos for the history books. Child model, Homecoming Queen, featured guest artist on stage and television, Miss America, Broadway, etc. I had a gift in the field of the arts and mother tried to cultivate those talents. I know she sacrificed to give me those opportunities and for that I am appreciative.  But what happens when the life you've lived becomes turned on its side, upside down, or does a dizzying full circle and you learn a secret has been kept from you? Was it out of love and to protect me? Was it to not bring shame upon the family? Was there ever an agreement to share the truth with me when I reached a certain age in adulthood? Mother never had the courage to tell me and she outlived ALMOST everyone who knew the truth. I feel she was ashamed and that late in life...what did it matter? Well, it matters to me. My children and my grandchildren deserve to know their history too.

Dorothy Benham